These past 2 weeks, have been very challenging. That's actually an understatement because I was under enormous pressure trying to cope with so many things.
I was on the verge of a breakdown. Thus, when I finally finished marking and keying-in the marks, a HUGE weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Suddenly, the air seemed fresher, the sky bluer and the world was a beautiful place once more ;)
I'm very much indebted to my colleagues especially Kak Saf and Kak Fidzah for their help and understanding. Even my principal was nice even though I fell way behind in my work. I hope that I won't have to take advantage of their generosity again.
No one is infallible. People mess up all the time. And when they do, they tend to avoid the people they've wronged so that they won't be called into account. It's incredibly hard to own up to your mistakes. For example, when I had not finished marking, I wished I had an invisibility cloak so that I could avoid my students and the SU Peperiksaan.
But sooner or later, you've got to bite the bullet. I love this quote by Sheikh Yahya Adel Ibrahim: "You know you are #OnTheSunnah when you accept responsibility for a mistake and do your best to correct it."
So, own up and start making amends. It's not going to be easy but "when the going gets tough, the tough turn to Allah for assistance".
So, don't despair of Allah's Mercy :)
Talking about fallibility, I have a theory that one of the reasons people like to talk/gossip about others is to make themselves feel better.
For example, when you hear the latest gossip about a colleague known for his/her inefficiency, you cannot help but feel good about yourself. Subconsciously, you're thinking; "Thank God, I'm not as bad as that!"
But before you get on your high horse and proceed to pass and circulate the latest piece of gossip, remember this advice by Imam Ash-Shaafi'ee; "Let not your tongue mention the shame of another. For you yourself are covered in shame and all men have tongues."
(I remind myself before I remind others)
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let us remind each other about this. our female species mostly go to the hell because of our tongue.
If we can talk about other people, other people can talk about us.
If we expect them to accept the truth about them, we should expect the same for ourselves.
Just my own reasoning. Nothing fancy. =)
Hi Rosyada!
A friend of mine showed me your blog (your post about the difference between being a practicum teacher and a full-time teacher in particular) and i found it very enlightening! I'm a teach for malaysia fellow who've been in school for 6 months and feel exactly the same way you felt then!
Anyway, thought of commenting to tell you how much your posts have resonated with how i (and other fellows in tfm) currently feel. I teach English too, but in a rural school, and i'm having such a hard time teaching the content to students who have little to no grasp of the language. not only that, we are so short on english teachers that the existing teachers couldn't really spare much time to help me out too. it'll be great if we could exchange contacts and i could ask you some english-related questions!
thanks for being such a great teacher, and keep pushing on :)
Hi Suet Li
My email add is: rosyada.sulaiman[@]ymail[.]com
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